Saturday, July 26, 2008
I've got nothing to say. The way you treat me and the way you care for me are totally different. It seems like you've change. Easily mood swing lately. And i wonder why. Everything seems to change. Your mood and the way you're treating me. I admit that you do care for me real lots. But the way you treat me seems a little cold or maybe strange? I don't know. Just weird.Most of the time i don't know what you're thinking. How i hope that you could have just let me know what you're thinking and stop all the mood swings ? I don't like it when you're in a bad mood. Whenever you're in a bad mood, i don't even dare to talk to you nor sms you at all. I'm afraid we'll end up quarrelling? Even worse, maybe we'll scream at each other ? Sigh. I know that our shift is different. It's hard to meet up. Even if there's a little time, either one of us will feel tired after work. Hopefully we won't drift apart. I always wonder why do i have this feeling that we're drifting apart ? Or maybe we are drifting apart ? I don't know. This strange feeling makes me wonder and i hate it. Cause wondering may leads to misunderstanding or what so ever. I just don't like the feeling at all. Hate it ! Boy, you really know how to make me smile and laugh. But at times, you really do know how to piss me off, make me angry. And there's nothing i can do, but just keep it to myself ? Maybe i do show that i'm angry at times and i'm sorry if i do. You know, people do have their own limits. So do i. Sometime you've got too far that makes me so pissed that i've got nothing to say at all. And i don't even know what can i do. Giving you attitude doesn't solve the problem. Ignoring you doesn't help too. What can i do boy ? Other then keeping it to myself . There's so many things i want to let you know but do i have the time ? How am i going to say ? How must i put it so that it doesn't offense you or even myself ? There's so much thinking to do before telling you. Sigh. Times and times i just tell myself, tomorrow will be a better day for me and you. But is it a better day ? I don't know. Maybe it is or maybe it's not. No one knows what will happen in future, all i know that i don't wish to have any regrets in future. I want to have lots of laughter and smiles every single day. And that includes you boy. I want you to smile everyday. (:
Overall, i still love you my boy. (:
Btw, i'm sick for days. Fever, sore throat and cough. Lately, there's so many people falling sick. Getting fever and etc. And i don't know why. Maybe it's the weather ? So people please do take care. (:
Boyfriend is doing midnight shift right now. So poor thing. (:
11:13 pm